Doha, room 401, almajoori hotel
Firstly im pissed because I was promised Marriot and I got this. Second thing, the handle of my hand luggage broke just as I entered the hotel. Third I was so clumsy that my hand luggage knocked down the metal rubbish bin by the elevator and fourth, of all the days, my wrist watch had to break. There’s on good news, I got a room for myself. Well, basically I did not want to stay with that girl and im glad she thought the same way too. I was glad that I was given a single room after I started flirting with him a bit and thank god I understood Hindi, and I got the manager involved into a nice conversation till he allowed me to stay alone. Now that’s my talent and im proud of it. I don’t actually need to carry my skirts or show my cleavage just to get things done. I just talk and it always seems to work if you are sincere. I was told that dinner was to be served now and breakfast at 7 tomorrow. And my check out of that hotel is at 12. So I have around a day more here in Doha. I don’t plan to go out with a taxi or anything like that. Im just going to walk around since the hotel is in town. Well, for one I can sleep naked and no one will comment but the thought that this is an Arab country, I double checked my door. Its one is here in Doha now and Im sleepy. Some how im too tired to sleep I guess. A peek out of the window shows some unrevealed part of Doha. If im not mistaken I just saw a prostitute flashing her boobs to some cars passing. OK made up my mind, im just going for food and no where else. My times are just not good. Oh movie marathon has started in my room. Let’s see the channels are killing. Channel one shows some Arabians stretching, uff channel 2 some discussion in Arab language. Right channel 3 is what Im glued to cause it in English, whoa, Richard Gere just got slapped, I think its this No mercy movie, rite next channel 4, some Arabian singing ya Habibi, urgh, channel 5 LBC channel muted I don’t know why, channel 6 black and white next!, channel 7 blank, channel 8 ahhh BBC world news. It’s been such a long time since actually watched news. Pilot killed in crash some spy pilots, Briton arrested, im still lost. Let me skip the channels and jump to channel 15. Sexy Arabians and whoa they are sexy and they really can shake their hips. Right enough, Im going to watch Euro news now and fall asleep. That’s all about my one night in Doha, im just surrounded by shops shops and sand. Good night people bye
Friday, June 24, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Well I fundamentally left Kursk at 4 am, willing fully accompanied by my best friend, raj and my two affectionate brothers, Marcus and mike to patfak to take the bus. It was rather chilly and inside me I dint have any exhilaration to leave Kursk and to leave these magnificent people. I have grown so fond of to them that on the whole we were depending on each other. I know I will miss them a lot particularly Raj and mike. Raj was hushed the whole entire day and so was mike. Logen was with me the whole day from shopping till packing. Mike and raj made me my two desired meals, soy with ketchup and saccharine sour egg. I felt something pungent up my throat while eating. For the first time, everyone was silence during dinner including me. I felt like I was leaving something really imperative back and couldn’t find it. Well if they were actually leaving with me or anything earlier I wouldn’t be so distressing. The fact that they were leaving only on July 17th made me feel so sick. Well I hope everything goes on fine.
The waft of wee hours of the morning was really frosty. I was the first on to arrive at patfak and no one was there so I kind off lazed around, went visiting friends and etc. Jaya called asking for me when I was talking to dev asking me to come down. I heavy heartedly left and went down and entered the bus to find myself a comfy place in the bus. It was a sleeping bus so it was rather cozy in there. I said tata to everyone and got into the bus and left. I tried sleeping for so long that the next thing I knew was that I was in Moscow. My flight was to leave at 4.30 and we had to check in at 2. It was 1.30pm when we reach the airdrome. I hurried and changed my rubles to USD and then I renowned a very recognizable face. Right I was. It was Ramesh the guy whom I did my practical with last year along with Suren whom was there too. Well, I checked in and got to the plane, set my self up and Walla, I slept. Ha-ha. I woke up when dinner was served and slept back. The next thing I knew is Im in Doha. Will update you when I get to the hotel. Bye and stay tuned!
Friday, June 17, 2005
Don't Marry a Computer, Software or a Web Engineer.
Husband : (Returning late from work) "Good Evening dear....I'm now logged in." Wife: Have you brought the groceries? Husband : Bad command or filename. Wife: But I told you in the morning Husband : Syntax Error. Abort? Wife: What about my new TV? Husband : Variable not found . . . Wife : At least, give me your Credit Card, I want to do someshopping. Husband : Sharing Violation. Access denied Wife: Do you love me or do you only love computers or are you just being funny? Husband : Too many parameters . . . Wife: It was a great mistake that I married an idiot like you. Husband : Data type mismatch. Wife: You are useless. Husband : It's by Default. Wife: What about your Salary? Husband : File in use . . . Try later. Wife: What is my value in the family. Husband : Unknown Virus.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
I woke up basically at 8.00 am and my class was at 8.30. You may presuppose that I was still in time but the nastiest part was there was not even a single taxi at sight and I had to travel to a hospital for my propadeutics classes. I finally got a taxi and I wasn’t the only one behind schedule for class. It was fascinating to actually study internal diseases and what we had for class today was about the GIT and we managed to finish the whole percussion, palpation and auscultation all in one day.
The next thing on my mind was to get my credit books signed for pharmacology and path physiology which I did in time. I came home feeling a little pompous of myself and logged online.
I logged in IRC and into yahoo and found 330 mails in my mail box. Something actually caught my concentration there about the de recognization of Crimea state medical university, Russia. All pre med students and those enrolling now to leave to Crimea are advised to extract all the payments and application. I was dazed to read that they actually have 2000 plus Malaysian students studying medicine just in Crimea.
I found Mr.Muchkins online and was basically having a chat with him. Well, it was kind of fastidious to actually sit back and loosen up and talk to someone you actually can open up to. My mother was online so was my younger sister, we had some gossips reorganized and I in return told her particulars about my flight and etc.
I was a little drained and decided to catnap for at least 1 hour, so well that’s what I thought, I woke up at 10 plus and I dint have this good feeling adjoining me. It was like I smelled either snag or let’s see, well, I just felt very heavy inside.
I logged online after lazing around for another half an hour. I logged on and I said a hi to my usual friends and none answered me. Okay forget the rest, but kippu refused to answer me, and I thought I must have said something really erroneous. Mr.muchkins was around and I had a succinct conversation. I always delete my message achieve everyday and I was going through it and I found some stuffs which I never wrote. Not a fuck you note to my mom. That was acutely a grave issue.
I logged on to IRC and that’s where I realized that some jackasses had got thru my yahoo and retrieved my password even on IRC. It was preposterous for me to actually tell my pass words around. Well, let’s see MR. Javed, that’s his real name, much known as GODZUKI, comes in with pitiable nicks like Bhoom and Jumbles, and not a man enough to come up and speak in front. For some reasons, I personally think he’s a gay. Well for one, he looks like one and for two, each time he hits a conversation with me, its got to be Le this Le that. And well he really sounds domineering over Le_debbs. LE you’ve got yourself a devotee.
Well, bhoom seems to be basically distressed by my access everywhere, so he logged into my IRC username, removes all my access as if he thought that would have an inch bothered me, and well he talked to kipps and Pone and well of course they were no dumbos like him, lol, sometimes I think, he’s such a dumb fuck. Well, one thing I realized yesterday was that he’s a person whom is basically so freaking down, a low down life person and I guess it’s just the way he was brought up, and his rearing actually showed him this path of life. I mean if a person isn’t able to find at least one word of unadulterated and apt meaning, I have nothing to say. He swears at other peoples mothers, and uses crude words on them, so I can actually imagine what kind of a mother he has, and what kind of a father he has, or maybe…maybe he never knew his dad. Well makes sense, im not being mean, im being coherent, if you say a word about my mother, I have flawlessly ten words in return, and deem me, you don’t really want to know…am going to sleep now tata
Monday, June 13, 2005
Sunday, June 12, 2005
The 5 Things You Really Want to Know About Men!
By Mr. Answer ManMore from iVillage
4 Things He Doesn't Dare Tell YouWhat He's Really Thinking -- RevealedGuy Behavior 101
Ever wonder what a guy was really thinking - but were too afraid to ask?You're not the only one! We took five of your most-asked questions and gotsome real answers from a real guy, our resident expert on the maleperspective, Mr. Answer Man.
1. Do all men have the same sexual fantasies? And what are they?Men's sexual fantasies are probably a lot tamer than you think. For the mostpart, they don't even involve multiple partners, foreign objects or a tight,skimpy French maid's outfit. Male sexual fantasy tends to stick to a verytight formula: hot rambunctious sex with people we aren't supposed to behaving it with. This pool is extended to include platonic friends, ourgirlfriend or spouse's friends and ex-girlfriends who were great in bed.
2. Do men care if their partner earns more money than they do?Short answer, yes. Even if we try to hide it and say that it's okay, thetruth is that when a woman out-earns us, it's a blow to our egos. That said,not all of us are comfortable being the breadwinners, either. Beingresponsible for someone else's financial stability is a huge amount ofpressure. It's a Catch-22.
3. How can I tell if my partner is cheating?The issue here is trust. I'll assume, since you ask the question at all,that in some way, you are questioning your partner's commitment, not just toyou, but to the truth. And to answer your question, you can't know if yourpartner is cheating until you're presented with clear, incontrovertibleproof. Which leaves us with a far more difficult issue: what to do when yoususpect but cannot prove.I could throw out all the stereotypical signs of cheating: he says he has towork late, but when you call the office, no one answers; he avoids intimacyand sex; he talks a lot about a female friend or colleague; he's vague ordefensive about where he's been when not with you. But none of theseso-called signs are proof of unfaithfulness. In my humble opinion, ratherthan accusing your partner of infidelity, the safest bet is to address theissue of trust in your relationship in general. Whether by yourselves or incouples counseling, your feelings have to be acknowledged and worked throughtogether if you're ever going to build a genuine, trusting relationship.This is not easy -- only absolutely necessary.Trust is never a sure thing. It's precious precisely because of howvulnerable it leaves us. But trust upheld is one of life's richesttreasures, well worth the risk of being honest about our feelings, no matterhow painful. Good luck.
4. What does a guy really think when you have sex on the first date?He really thinks you're slutty. And that, sister, is not necessarily a badthing -- depending on what you want out of the relationship, of course.Unless he believes that he's the exception to the rule (in other words, ifhe doesn't think you fall into bed on the first date with every guy), doingthe horizontal boogie so early on means your relationship is going to bemainly about sex. When you're making plans for future dates, he'll bethinking of you on the dinner table rather than across it. However, if youwait and get to know each other on an emotional level and let the physicalfollow, then the relationship can be about both. The exception: If you twohave been friends for a while, then hit the sheets on your first "official"date, don't worry -- your relationship can be hot and heavy.
5. Why do men come crawling back after they break up with you?Let me be blunt. A man comes crawling back after a breakup because he'dgotten used to a certain something that he's no longer getting and is nowpanicking in the face of a biological drive -- at the expense of yourfeelings and his pride.There are two exceptions to this rule, and both have to do with the timeframe of the ''crawl back.'' First, if your guy comes crawling backimmediately, he's probably being genuine -- pathetic, but genuine. Herealizes he's made a terrible mistake and really does want to make therelationship work. Also, if months and months have passed, you can be prettysure that he's really thought about it, truly misses you and (finally)realizes what a great gal you are. But if he calls you, say, two to threeweeks after he walked out of your life, do not be fooled. It only means he'sbeen unable to get his erotic needs fulfilled and has succumbed topath-of-least-resistance daydreams about his last partner -- namely, you.Suggest that he try one of the many 900 numbers out there and cross his nameout of your address book.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Mahalekshmi selvanathan
Sleep my baby, sleep my life,
I’ve loved you for hours and for nights,
Secure your eyes disregard the light,
Soon I shall vanish from your sight
I know you love me, I love you too,
But certain thing just don’t seem right,
My reasons you shall comprehend very soon,
By then again I won’t be at sight…
I discern love hurts but I didn’t believe,
And very soon you’ll feel relieved,
I never thought this day would come thru,
But you proved it right that they surely do
Now go my love, don’t ever turn back,
I’m thankful your love I never lacked,
But when you search me all again,
I’ll be gone wasted in vain….
Friday, May 27, 2005
Its freaking hot here. Nope, Not hot its burning. Ever year I return home to Malaysia in a brighter color, a nicer tone and this time im getting burned in Russia. Basically everyone is in their bras. So is my Russian teacher. I was like just staring at what she was basically wearing. It was so very transparent. If they cant take the heat, how can we I thought. Well I only had one class the whole entire day. I slept way too long today and somehow I feel really good. I have plans for my weekend to watch lots of movie and try studying my blood analysis. Till then tata
Breaking up brings in lot of grief, pain andresentment. Learn how to cope up with the situationand how to control your emotions.
SURVIVING LOST LOVE
When one door of happiness closes, another opens: butoften we look so long at the closed door that we donot see the one that has been opened for us.
Step One: Allow yourself time to heal, and know that you canheal. Whether the loss is due to death, rejection, orother reason. It is normal to grieve over a loss of alove for any reason. It usually takes two to threeyears for a couple whose relationship has broken up tobegin to put their lives back together again. Itsometimes takes five years for individuals andfamilies to get over the emotional pain and trauma.Many people can have serious health and emotionalproblems during this time
BUT... Step Two: Realize that you still can find happiness. Realizethat you can control how you think, what you thinkabout, and how much. A key is to concentrate on thepositives you have in the present. Not thinking aboutthe future or past
Step Three: Activily work to feel better. Act happy and smile.Even if you don't feel that way, it should start tomake you feel that way. Life will be better.
Letting Go Dealing with "Breaking up" is a difficult thing to dobut one has to realize that whatever happens is forthe best. You have to learn to deal with the situationthat your lover is no more there in your life…..he isgone and you have to learn to forget him and live yourlife. You have to let go and move on. It's the crucialstep in moving on to a healthy life. The followinglist gives you some tips and exercises that can helpyou with the process:
1. The first thing that you have to do is practice"Thought controlling". It's normal to have recurringthoughts about your ex. One way to do it is to decideon a specific time of day where you will give yourselfover to the thoughts. At that time think about your exand think about someone else you like. Again thinkabout him and then think about your work. By doingthis you will learn to control your thoughts. If youfind yourself obsessing at other times, force yourselfto "change the channel" in your brain, or pickyourself up and do something constructive - listen toyour favourite music, take a walk, exercise, water theplants, etc.
2. Instead of lamenting the end, celebrate it. Put onsome music, throw a party for yourself, jump up anddown, and yell, "Thank God he is out of my life!"
3. Call all your friends and have them pep you up. Getyour pals on the phone and ask them to remind you ofall your wonderful traits. Let them take your side andtell you how wonderful you are.
4. Deal with the situation pragmatically. If you wereinvolved in a relationship with a married man and herefuses to leave his wife for you. You know that heloves you very much, but he can't leave because he isworried about his kids, his business, and his wife.This situation is quite natural and expected so ifonly you had looked at the situation logically fromthe beginning, you wouldn't have been as devastated asyou are after he leaves you. While it will be stupidto punish yourself, you should have been prepared forthe possibility.
5. Reaffirm that you deserve to be treated well. Goover all the sides of the story. Was he mean, cruel,insensitive? And then tell yourself that you deservebetter.
6. Keep a sense of humor. Research has shown thatlaughter strengthens the immune system. So laugh andforget your pain.
7. Flush out your anger. Write your ex a letter,pouring out your hurt, disappointment, and anger --but don't send it. Or else think he is in front of youand then pour out your anger on him or pour out youranger on a punching bag. That's a good way to purgeyour feelings.
8. Rebuild trust. Don't generalize men as "MCP". Ofcourse, trust gets shattered after you're hurt, buttry to forget the past and keep a clean slate. If youlive in fear, imagining that all men are unfaithfuland are not trustworthy, this is the reality that youwill create. Be open to new relationships and learn totrust people who are trustworthier, and who are worthyof your trust.
9. Most important thing is "Don't blame yourself forwhat happened". It is not your fault that your ex leftyou. He is just not good for you and he doesn'tdeserve you
pst people....rejoice and celebrate being single!
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Monday, May 23, 2005
Saturday and Sunday was a perfect get off for me. Basically I had fun with my friends and got to know them better. I leanred one thing from them, you give them what you want from them. I realized that if u actually trusted them with your heart, they would give you their heart too. We talked the whole night thru Saturday and on Sunday, lets see.
I dint have the mood to log in the web. I basically stayed on bed till one till I got someone waking me up. I was late for church as usual. Well, I called logen to wake up and got him to come with me and raj to the church. We aren’t Christians, but I somewhat found it rather relaxing to just go to the church and lit up some candles. The church was closed for some occasion I was told. We went in to lit the candles and I was a little bit shaken when I saw a coffin with a lovely lady in it. Time to leave I told logen and raj.
We walked back slowly and on the way I picked some wild flowers for the prayers that night. I did my laundry and other stuffs and went to bed at one. Rather early I must say
Well I woke up late today. My class was at 8 and I woke up at 8. I went to class by a taxi and had the reasons of having diarrhea. Thankfully I was allowed into class. I managed to get thru the blood analysis which we have been struggling to do for the past 3 weeks.
I have surgery later in the afternoon which I have not prepared any notes for. Maybe I should start now. I should be in time.
Well till then people stay tuned.
